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May 20th, 2007, 01:20 AM
Okay, so this is pretty much a random out there release, or just... Sadness, worries, sheerly because of a lack of other ways of getting it out?
So, you're gay, and you know it... What about when other people don't? You tried telling your parents, and they use stereotypical bullshit against you, saying things such as "You aren't gay... You don't look gay..." and "You don't do the same things"
How do you respond to that? When (Why?) they are so determined to make you be something they like, to be something they feel like making you into?
Where names like Devon suddenly becomes an alias for some made up girl, just so you can openly talk about Devon (A very cute boy I might add) openly. Social pressures, kids calling other kids gay for the stupidest of idiotic reasons. Kids being total and complete assholes, for no apparent reason. Kids getting killed, stoned, anything... Sheerly because they're different?
Out society doesn't support gays, straight guys (At least here) they demean them. They make them inhuman, and then make them into a simple object without feelings, hopes or dreams. And for the record, I do understand that this is a complete rant, and that it is based of the idea of being a pessimist. You can only lie, and blend into a crowd for so long, before you begin to hate your core self, and people start to notice. You can get into things like cutting, things like suicide... All because of such a simple thing as liking your same sex?
It's pathetic to watch other guys cheering on lesbianism "It's a turn on" is the all around arguement, then they suddenly see two guys hugging and you immediatly get a crowd jeering "Faggots" until staff breaks it up.
I'm not sure exactly as to the reason that I'm writing this, I just find it hard to exist in this society, within these set social standards that truly need to change. My birthday yesterday, and yet it was empty, the secrets, the lies all make it numb in an odd way. How do you deal with having a crush on a boy that you think is completly homophobic, but what if he fakes it just like you?
In all honesty is the risk of being stoned, being more of a social outcast actually worth coming out, being who you think you are?
Lies on lies, a sad back story, and a hidden life? In irony it fits in wellness as a section, it fits almost perfectly.
-That random kid in NH
So, you're gay, and you know it... What about when other people don't? You tried telling your parents, and they use stereotypical bullshit against you, saying things such as "You aren't gay... You don't look gay..." and "You don't do the same things"
How do you respond to that? When (Why?) they are so determined to make you be something they like, to be something they feel like making you into?
Where names like Devon suddenly becomes an alias for some made up girl, just so you can openly talk about Devon (A very cute boy I might add) openly. Social pressures, kids calling other kids gay for the stupidest of idiotic reasons. Kids being total and complete assholes, for no apparent reason. Kids getting killed, stoned, anything... Sheerly because they're different?
Out society doesn't support gays, straight guys (At least here) they demean them. They make them inhuman, and then make them into a simple object without feelings, hopes or dreams. And for the record, I do understand that this is a complete rant, and that it is based of the idea of being a pessimist. You can only lie, and blend into a crowd for so long, before you begin to hate your core self, and people start to notice. You can get into things like cutting, things like suicide... All because of such a simple thing as liking your same sex?
It's pathetic to watch other guys cheering on lesbianism "It's a turn on" is the all around arguement, then they suddenly see two guys hugging and you immediatly get a crowd jeering "Faggots" until staff breaks it up.
I'm not sure exactly as to the reason that I'm writing this, I just find it hard to exist in this society, within these set social standards that truly need to change. My birthday yesterday, and yet it was empty, the secrets, the lies all make it numb in an odd way. How do you deal with having a crush on a boy that you think is completly homophobic, but what if he fakes it just like you?
In all honesty is the risk of being stoned, being more of a social outcast actually worth coming out, being who you think you are?
Lies on lies, a sad back story, and a hidden life? In irony it fits in wellness as a section, it fits almost perfectly.
-That random kid in NH