Derek, Adam

[~*~AiM_uSeR~*~]

Urg. I am in love like actual love w/ derek and adam. Unfortunaltly they are both straight. My whole school is straight but me! Its depressing. I want them so bad. Everyone knows i like them and i get made fun of becuase of it. Derek i heard like hates me and won't talk to me. Adam always picks on me...like walks in the hall way and is like "jeff" and touchs me shoulder and stuff. I know hes str8 but i would love for him to be gay er bi. I just don't know what to do. Iam 16 1/2 yaers old and am going insane! I want a bf becuase i want to be like a normal teen w/ sex and everyhting. Hmm...I am soo depressed and its making me soo even more depressed thinking about them and then seeing them w/ their gf (derek has a gf...adam just likes to sleep around - so i heard)

~Jeff~

[pinkpanther]

Jeff~
hey i totally hear u on that!! im 20 but i graduated from a REEAALLLYYY preppy/snobby/stuckup/cliquey High School ... so let me tell ya - I UNDERSTAND! but listen all i can tell u is just BE YOURSELF, be true to YOU and dont front dont feel like u gotta front...always be yourself and know that if something is meant to be, IT WILL. im a lesbian, and so i treated ladies like they should be...sure people were like, "f*ckin dyke" er wutever, but hey that's ME and that's how i do and u know wut??? the first girl i was ever semi-serious with had never been with a girl before...and we were together almost 2 years. so dont be sad - love yourself and others will too ;)
xoxo

[spreadeagle]

G'day Jeff,

It's a sure bet that you are not the only gay guy in your school. But adolescent guys are generally so freaked out by the physical and emotional changes they are going through that they just want to be like everyone else. In all likelihood the ones who are most anti-gay are the ones who are most insecure about their own sexuality; you're the only one with any guts.

You're facing what every gay guy needs to go through sooner or later, an attraction to inappropriate partners. If these guys aren't responsive then all your yearning is not going to change things one iota. The best you can hope for is what you're probably doing already; using them for jack-off fantasy.

If you can stop thinking with your dick and and focus on using these next few years in developing your body, brain and social skills you'll come out of high school way ahead of these geeks. Gay people will always have to face the challenge of feeling like outsiders within social institutions; school is your opportunity to discover how to work the system to your advantage. The important thing for you now, Jeff, is that you stay safe. Don't let your depression or your desperation make you place yourself at risk. You're worth more than that.
Cheers
Spread

[notebook]

It's been some years since highschool but I too was in love with a guy in most of my classes.I did however end up having an affair with him while he was dating girls. He said they couldn't satisfy him likle I did. So be patient it could happen.Urg. I am in love like actual love w/ derek and adam. Unfortunaltly they are both straight. My whole school is straight but me! Its depressing. I want them so bad. Everyone knows i like them and i get made fun of becuase of it. Derek i heard like hates me and won't talk to me. Adam always picks on me...like walks in the hall way and is like "jeff" and touchs me shoulder and stuff. I know hes str8 but i would love for him to be gay er bi. I just don't know what to do. Iam 16 1/2 yaers old and am going insane! I want a bf becuase i want to be like a normal teen w/ sex and everyhting. Hmm...I am soo depressed and its making me soo even more depressed thinking about them and then seeing them w/ their gf (derek has a gf...adam just likes to sleep around - so i heard)

~Jeff~