I am one of the married guys that their families hated the thought that I could have feelings for men. That is why I am on my second marriage and have 6 sons ranging from age 25 to 5. I love my wife and kids deeply, but I desperately have this need to touch a man. Even 2 years ago I had a one night fling with a man, and it felt so right and fulfilled me so much. But if I ever said my feelings, so many people would be torn to pieces. Please give me advise on what to do, or should I live my life like I have been. I couldn't stand to see my family hurt, meaning my wife and children. I would rather just feel unsatisfied than to go through all of the hurt. I am 44 now.

 

Do you want to be free and experiment? or do you want to stay with your family and wonder how would it be to be with a man?  A lot of married guys do wonder and want to be free to experiment.  The problem is that you will not know until you try it.  Once you try to have a relationship (not just sex because that's always fun) with a man,  you may or may not like it.  If you don't like it, you will be screwed and very unhappy as you put all your family through this for nothing.  If you like it , you will be glad you did.   Unfortunately, nobody can tell you what to do. Only you have the power to decide for your life.  Listen to your instinct and act knowing that it is not only you. Your wife, kids and everybody else will be affected.  However, the only thing your family expects and wants from you is for you to be happy. So no matter what your decision is, it will be worth it if you become a happier man who is proud to have such a lovely family.  Good luck!