I made a major mistake, and now I can't live with what I have done. I have been with my boyfriend for three years, and he had been the only guy I have been involved with. He was my first lover. For the lack of better judgment, I cheated on him with a acquaintance of both of ours. I could say it was due to use of alcohol, but that would be a lie. I was just horny guy and the time presented itself, and I took it. Immediately after, the guilt set in about what I did, so I came clean and told my boyfriend about the affair. If anything, I can say I am honest to a fault. I was sure would end our relationship. But to my surprise, he was very understanding. Too understanding in my opinion. He told me that he can understand why I had cheated, being the fact that I had never been with anyone else but him and we should just put in the past. But it's all I think about. Not the act of having the affair, but the fact that I went through with it. That I cheated on someone I care so much about. I love my boyfriend, and I never meant to cause him any harm. Things seem to be okay between us, all for the fact that I feel this unbearable guilt for what I have done. I don't want to lose him, but I am the one who can't get pass what I did. Will I ever get over this, or am I just doomed to feel the guilt for a night of passion that should have never occurred?

 

Enough is enough. You did it, he forgave you...time to move on!  Don't live in the past. Mistakes are made so people can learn from them.  You have learned from your mistake. Now you need to keep your man and your relationship. It is going to take a lot of give and take and a lot of communication.  So focus your energy into a positive energy. Good luck!